It is early June...my daughter has graduated from High School, and the open house was last weekend. Wow, where does time go? So thankful for my sister that flew in to help with all the preparation. I just took her back to the airport today. Now, as I sit in my living room alone, I'm faced with yet another transition. The transition to having another "adult" in the house. In the fall, she will be moving to college and I will have many nights alone.
In these quiet times, I find myself considering where my life has taken me and where it will take me in the future. I don't dread the next phase, as much as I just wonder what to expect.
When kids are born, the thought of them being grown up and living on their own is so far off...and yet, it was only yesterday, it seems. You've heard the saying that "time flies", but just have kids and you realize just how true it is.
During the graduation season, I found myself thinking of times past. It really wasn't that long ago that my baby came home crying with a skinned knee. It was seemingly so recent that I had to pour her a glass of milk, and brush her hair. Now, when I look at her, I see a beautiful young woman that is ready and anxious to start her own life. That's normal, right? That's what I've worked for all these years, right? Wow, it's here!
Did I pour into her all that I could have or should have? Did I teach her everything she needs to know to make it in the world. No, I did not...but I did teach her that she can come to me in any situation for help. She knows that God loves her and that we love her. She knows that she has the support of her family and her church family.
I'm very proud of the choices that she has made so far. I'm sure she won't make all the right decisions, but heaven knows, I haven't either. It's amazing that we humans can actually make decisions, have kids, have responsibilities when there is no instruction manual. What a surreal feeling to know that I'm the mom, I'm the one that is supposed to have answers. In church, I'm one of the "older ladies" that the young girls are supposed to look to for example. Wow, thank God for grace!
In each new situation, I feel like a "newbie". I often wonder how those who've gone before have felt. Does everyone feel like a "newbie" at being the "older lady"? or the mom with children in college? and what will the next stage feel like? When children marry and have families of their own, how will that feel? I'm just so thankful that God understands me. He knows my feelings, and he comforts me with His perfect grace. I don't have to make all the right decisions, because He has it covered.
If you don't serve a God that has your back...maybe you should meet Him! I'm so thankful for God's full and perfect grace. I can relax...I know that whatever my future holds, it will be awesome, because it's in His hands.
Chat with you later...
